From My Heart...

I once was lost but now am found,  Was blind, but now I see. (Amazing Grace by John Newton) I was lost... lost in the hurt...lost in the frustration...lost in the fury...lost in my will. Day after day I wandered in a black forest, seeing nothing, just trying to feel my way through the darkness. Not all who wander are lost but I was lost. I was alone. I was afraid. I was angry. When I looked around all I could see were the broken dreams, broken promises, broken me. I needed help but I could not find it or maybe I did not want it. Maybe I could fix it on my own. How did I get here?!  What did I do wrong? When did I loose myself in this hate? Where do I go from here? I did not have any of the right answers.  I hear a voice, it is calling me. Someone is there but I cannot see them. I do not want to. I want to stay in the forest. I like the black forest. It is my protection from feeling the hurt again. Lies. Lies. Lies.  All o...